NEON HEARTS AND TINGLY FEELINGZ.
(bittersweet_chocolate93/hotm.)
"I'm out of this mess dahling,
I'm just here to play."
Shumin, sixteen, vjvolleyball. (-:
Wednesday, November 5, 2008, 4:46 PM
Grandma's big day.-
Lifejournal has these........ corny-lookin' kinda emoticons ha ha but they're good aren't they. Missed training today, bloody weather added on to the mood. I hate rain, I rly hate rain now. I suppose only # knows what rly happened, for I was so pissed I texted # who told me to relax. Mum wanted to ground me, she wanted even to bar me from going to prom tomorrow. Was so angry with myself I buried myself underneath the sheets and cried hard, cried because I lost You, fancy being naive all the time, stupid girl you stupid girl. Cried because dad was forever against me going to church, even though the flyer for Nick Vujicic's talk had already been photoshopped to emit the "church" or "God" parts, and yet he refused w/o even stopping to listen. Shallow, rly shallow. Cried out of sheer disappointment, what's the use now what's the use? Pray, but what ever rly comes true? I'm not doubting God, it's just.............. you're so tired of waiting it gets to you sometimes. Cried because I was fed-up with mum, with dad, with math and chem, with myself, actually for lending myself in this state. Pick up, pick up, quick, move along already.I'm going to run, going to run to get my mind off things. This's not "emo", I'm not one to be a pessimist and huddle up in a corner and tell life I hate it. Everybody has bad days, today just happened to be mine and it's not gonne be coming back in a long while.
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On a lighter note, Nut's leaving for LA tomorrow. Have a safe trip luv, (-: